Stare at me...

I have a new found respect for Jack Johnson... Yes he has amazing songs, and he is just a relaxed Surfer, But his words are what get me the most. I was feeling a bit down the other day... Just stressed for what seemed to be no reason. Just kinda hating the world, and while I was doing the dishes a song came on my laptop low and behold it was just the song I needed to hear by Jack Johnson...

A lot of his stuff he makes you remember that you aren't alone that there are people that love you. It just seems to make you feel a lot better. Or at least me I should say.

I guess I get really really tired of feeling alone (though I am not). Not having any friends here. Just reminds me how much i hate the fact that i have no where to go but here in this apartment of nothing. I know I have Jax, Apache, and Kyle, but Kyle has to work and Jax and Apache play with each other.. Makes me appreciate that I did live with mom and dad, Cause at least we talked a lot. I think a lot of people take for granted their family.. Regardless if what you consider your family is actually your friends, or someone's family; but they are always people there for you no matter what.

Even at Church it is hard to make friends. We have "nice" people, but kyle and I get stared at like we are from some other planet.. The people who are supposed to be dealing with Military people have said like two sentences to us... Though I didn't really have friends in Cedar Rapids and Church was by no means any better. People just kinda stared at me when I went places in Cedar rapids. Well they stare here too.... Maybe I just look funny. I always wonder if I have something on my face.. ugh I get so stressed out about this subject.

Who knows...

Guess Jeff was right we are the kind of people who are meant to be alone... Not really have any friends. We have always been better off by ourselves...

Here's to being alone...

Christin
Over and Out