One thing...

If there was one thing...


One thing I could forget....


It would be....



High school.


All of it...

It has been a while

OK! so my dear blog how I have missed you greatly... I hate having no time to tell you about the life that I have began for my self.... Well lets see..We can start with the most recent of things.. I am currently in my brother in laws car crammed in the back seat trying to type to you my dear friend. I have had a horrible day... actually a horrible couple of days... So... To get this out of my system this is what I want to talk about first. I have to get it off my chest....

Well! I have been working two jobs which I am not complaining about I love the fact that I feel like I can actually do some good around New York that I can be of some good. I have been working A LOT. Trying to get things taken care of for this weekend has been hard. I kept telling myself that I will soon be away from life and be able to get away... All I have been able to think about is how much I miss my mom, dad, and my brother and my sisters.... I hate being so far away... I am so close but so far away from them.. It has been really rough thinking about that. I WANT to be home... So I have been working open to close most days that means that i have been working from eight thirty in the morning to about ten or so at night. I don't really have to get much done. I needed to do laundry clean the house, get packed and what not. I didn't have time, I felt like ALL of it landed on my shoulders. So yes I cried easily.

The wedding weekend:

Part one: I hate airplanes.
We had to leave for the airport around three in the morning so I didn't even get the chance to sleep. So I have been tired. The line for security was almost out of the airport it was ridiculous. Then the lady that was doing the flight attendant thing was being stupid and was sitting back at the end of the plane with us. So I didn't get to sleep at all on the plane. We had a lay over in Chicago we had about an hour so we grabbed a bite to eat.. Well don't ever do that there at eight in the morning, cause you get the super rude people that act like you inconvenienced them horribly So then we get to our terminal in which they inform us that we being delayed by an half hour, then an hour, then we board and are delayed another hour if not longer. At this point in time I wanted to cry several times, and did. I wanted off the plane I wanted to see my uncle and go to the lake house and just hide.... Well none of that happened. Luckily we had the chance to go and eat lunch with my uncle and of course my brother in law and his girlfriend which was interesting to say the least. I forgot how much I loved Union station....

Part Two: Angry car ride with a perfect ending.
It took us Four and a half HOURS to get down to the Lake. What normally took Kyle and I an hour and a half or less took us Four and a half hours. I was not only crammed in a back seat with blankets and peoples bags I was also tired cranky and ready to throw up... (Which I did as soon as they got me to a gas station.) We finally arrived at the Vineyard where the wedding was taking place which was nice I wanted out of that car so fast. Kyle and I brought an extra change of clothes so we didn't have to look so grungy at the dinner. We looked Very very nice. I was so happy I wore an outfit that I had just bought the day before. Kyle had a nice stripped button up shirt on and a pair of rather nice jeans we were definitely feeling very confident about ourselves. The rehearsal went fast and getting to see his family again was nice as well. We were glad to be in the presences of our own blood. After the rehearsal we went to dinner at shorty pants. A nice eating establishment right off of the lake. The In law and soon to be in law's favorite place to eat. We had great food. We were hoping to see the movie that we have been dying to see but that didn't work out. So we just went back to the condo to our master bedroom and fell asleep rather fast.( We haven't had a real bed for the time that we have been married so we called dibs on the master bedroom with the nice big bed and and the lake view. Which we took advantage of. Along with the awesome tub and ridiculously nice shower. That definitely helped the weekend go a little smoother for my part...

Part three: The Jet Ski, splashes, fairy tale weddings.
Kyle and I woke up early so that we could head over to the house and see his family and hang out a bit. Of course we couldn't leave with out eating breakfast so we had our cereal on the deck facing the water it was very calm, very peaceful and gave us a great start. Kyle was all about the Jet Ski so that is the first thing that we did. The guys had a contest to see who could make it go faster Kyle won I knew I married him for a reason... I actually went all by my self on the jet ski and went fast for me. I am so little I had a hard time hanging out So I would have to slow down. After a little bit I had Kyle jump on with me and we raced a boat. Kyle is so fearless when it comes to speed. We played on the Jet Ski for a bit and then I had to put my foot down and get his brother to go back to the condo so we could get ready. Kyle looks amazing in a tux and I got lots of comments on how I was dressed. We were happy to not be getting negative comments that would have sucked. The wedding was amazing The vows were very traditional and everyone was dolled up and looking happy. The dinner was great as well. Kyle and I didn't really get a chance to eat any cake which was fun we don't really need it any ways. Good for us Ha ha The dancing came along Kyle and I won the best dancing couple. We were so embarrassed we didn't think anyone was watching we got beads though and felt great about ourselves! We were defiantly watched after that. Way to be tasteful dancers!


To be continued...

I hate the Flu...

Christin
Over and Out

Promise!

Dear Blog. I am sorry that I have failed on keeping you up to date on my life with My boys and I. Promise to write you all about what has happened lately (Which is a lot!) on the plane ride to St.Louis!

Random song? I think not.

Darius Rucker's song 'Learn to live' I don't know why but it really hits home for me...
I was driving in the "truck" (Really the SUV) I did that old favorite game of mine where I ask a question to the I pod or my Zune which ever one I am currently listening to.

I asked, "What am I doing wrong in my life?"

I got this as an answer, Learn to Live. I know what most people would say that is just a silly thing it's not true and you shouldn't trust things like that. Well... I guess I am just that silly person that dances in the car to a life changing song that I found of shuffle.

I never said I was a conventional person at finding out who I am...

Here are the lyrics....

Grandpa Campbell would sit upon his front porch
And I'd be right there, just sitting on his knee
He'd tell stories of love and feast and famine
And I'd hang on to every word that he would breathe
He'd said boy as you walk through this life
Here's a little wisdom that'll help you get by

You gotta live and learn
You gotta crash and burn
You gotta make some stances
And take some chances
You gotta live and love
And take all life has to give
You gotta live and learn
So you can learn to live

Well, I left home and I went to Carolina
I then set off just to see what I could see
I did some things that I wasn't really proud of
Sometimes life just got the best of me
But I'd always think back to those days
And I know what Grandpa Campbell would say
He'd say

You gotta live and learn
You gotta crash and burn
You gotta make some stances
And take some chances
You gotta live and love
And take all life has to give
You gotta live and learn
So you can learn to live

After years of runnin' round and searchin'
I found me a woman who loves me just for me
All those mistakes I thought that I was makin'
Led me right here to you sittin' on my knee
Son, as you walk through this life
Here's a little wisdom that'll help you get by

You gotta live and learn
You gotta crash and burn
You gotta make some stances
You gotta take some chances
You gotta live and love
And take all life has to give
You gotta live and learn
You gotta live and learn
So you can learn to live
Learn to live


So the song isn't my life it's his. That's not the point. It's not a Taylor Swift song where she writes for girls her age and younger.

Just some of the lyrics that really popped out at me...

You gotta make some stances
And take some chances

All those mistakes I thought that I was makin'
Led me right here to you sittin' on my knee

Lately I have been thinking about motherhood. Would I make a good mom? I had to think really hard about that one. I know that some people know right away that they will be. Or some with the opposite answers... After I heard that song... It made me realize I cam be a good mom. I can do it. With every single thing that I have put myself in and gotten myself out of. Or didn't put myself in but got myself out of... I can help my kids not make those mistakes. I know... My kids will make mistakes and get hurt.

I want to be the kind of mom my mom is. That no matter what it is or what has happened that she always had a band aid ready for me. I know that she doesn't know everything, and if she does she wont tell me because she doesn't want to see the pain go across my face again as I remember what has happened to me.

I don't know... I guess the song was a good pick me up on a gloomy day...

I just want to be a better person.

Christin


Over and Out.

Updation

The Drive-in theater:Kyle and I went to the drive in theater!!! How awesome is that?! We weren't sure it was going to be as good as it was. but the place we went was SO nice and really really cheap. Sound was awesome. and the people who worked there were really friendly. Guess we found out new place to go every Friday. That is honestly all we do... Watch movies. The dilemma of not drinking and living in a military town.

The way I dress: Well I never thought that I dressed horrible but I knew I didn't dress AS NICE. Well I have a lot of t shirts and jeans. So now I have to go and buy nicer shirts and all that jazz. Kyle doesn't like it. He thinks I have to many shoes and to many clothes. really I have two new pairs of flats that are the nice dress shoes I have. I only have one pair of heels. Also Most of my shirts are the actual shirts that I have gotten from traveling around.

New hobbies: I have picked up painting out of all things. I really enjoy actually. I think it is a blast. It takes you to really think. I picked it up quickly and am hoping to paint on more than just paper and what not. Thinking about finding an older dresser and refinishing it. Paint it and give it new nobs and stuff. I think it would be fun.

Finally decided what to do with my life: I finally decided on what I want to do with my life. I know I know that everyone has always made fun of me because I couldn't really decided. For a long time I have talked about becoming a chemical engineer. I am good at it. I know that I can do it. I could possibly do some good with that, but! I don't ever think that I could go day to day doing that job. I can bring happiness into someone's life with... waif for it... BAKED GOODS!!! :] I have actually picked up baking quite fast. I believe that I could do it and do a great job of it! So, Kyle and I have been talking and are looking at schooling things for me. I will need to go to school to get some business classes and management classes. I also need to get into baking/cooking school. :] I really really really like doing this. I feel really really really positive about this. I am really excited for it. I think I could be awesome at it. I mean I bake here all the time, and it's good! I CAN do this!!!! I CAN!


Over and Out

Christin

Being underestimated....

I am SICK and TIRED of being underestimated. Under appreciated and annoyed to all get out!

Really I hate how just because I am quiet, unassuming, and just don't feel like talking to stupid people...

I know that I am young hooray! I know my braces make me look like I am even younger. I know that being married at my age isn't advised! Thank you for point that out!!! I am sorry to tell you this, but i am quite smart. I know how to do several things that some will only dream about.

So just because I don't get smashed at your beer fest parties and grind up on your husbands doesn't make me stupid or a loser! It makes me have morals and values.

Not every quiet person has horrible mental problems. It just means that I don't find wasting my time on you.

It is nothing against those who have not had the chance to talk to someone like me but!!!!! those who have!! you annoy me.

I hate some Army wives. I will admit it. I don't feel bad about it. Though they may have hated me before I started hating them, I am not ashamed of it.


Christin

Where is your some where over the rainbow?

So Yes I have been watching Glee a lot lately. Every Thursday night, and I have been trying to catch up before next season starts...

I can't get over the Glee Version of 'Some over the Rainbow' I really really like it. It is a great song. Really stripped down. Raw and the guys that sing it are really into it. You can tell that they like singing the song...

Where is your some where over the Rainbow?...

My lullaby that I have dreamed of, Is the place no one would think to go find me. Where I could go to watch the sun set all by myself. The very place I would only dream of where I was the only one who knew where it was where I could make anything happen.

The dreams that I dare do dream to come true, the very secrets I hold down. The dreams that only I know... I could make those happen I really could. I could make anything happen. I could do my baking and make my creations of food, and do the smart things in which I was instructed to do. I could never have both with out the making fun of me... I could get people to stop making fun of me. I could do it.. I could do it all. Live out all my dreams...

I could make those Lemon drops melt.... I could... One day though one day when my clouds are super far away. Where I know that one day I could make those things happen I could do it. I want to do it I will. I just need my rainbow to appear...

I could be so high in the clouds way above the chimney tops happy with joy.... I don't know seems silly I know... I could hopefully do it one day...

It is just a dream a silly one, but I could do it. I know I could... I just need my chance to do it. I need my rainbow...

So I guess my true question should be....

Where is my Rainbow, because I already have my Some where over...